My once fallen
Angel
Author's Note:
The story of an
Angel
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“I could feel the
wind then as it tickles all over my body. It was a great feeling to feel it but
the wind unlike me is a free entity that flows where it wants to go and no one
can hold it all. If you do hold the wind, it will just shut down and start somewhere
else. That’s the magic of the wind. I wanted to be like the wind then until you
showed up. I did not know then that you existed as I can’t see you like others
may do so. But soon in me, I know you do. You came to me that day to hold me in
the dark and led me back to the light. I guess I needed one then and you
knew. It's not like I was a lost child
as I been around for years but I was getting tired that day and wanting to end
it all. Before you came, I had no one to looked for anything I need. There were some guiding hands but they showed
me more specks of dirt in me that I have to cleanse. But not you as you held me close and kept me
secured. I know I should not be asking it now, but do you really love me, or
are you just passing by in my lifetime. If you are the former, I would love you
to hold me more. If you are later, leave me when I close my eyes as I cannot
bear to part with you when I am awake.
If love is blind, then I am in love with you. But be true in yours for me at least during
the times you are with me. Like the
wind, let it flow and hold nothing back. When you do stop, it will crumble to
nothing and it matters not anymore. You
can hush my lips but you cannot hush my love for you, Jac.”
Those were his
words but it was him who has to leave as the works of an Angel, even though he
was once a fallen one, is never completed. His revival in my love has rejuvenated
his gift to heal and he is now doing that as I dream of him. But sometimes, an angel does forget that one
he was once in love with and healed him. If he was to know, I too need his
healing gift as I lie on the bed to await my operation to correct my sight. Let
me see you one more time, Angel before I lose my blindness. For its in blindness I saw you, and with my sight
restored I may lose you for good. But he did not turn up then and he will never
turn up now after fifty years. A sight restored and a love forgotten is not a
good bargain but one I had to accept as angels do work in their way. This time I will close my eyes, not to
blindness but life as I am leaving here. So I asked again the same request I
did then.
Would you be with
me again as the wind? And this time it's not a bargain from him but me.
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